my motherfucking perfect life

first of all, on tuesday i was on facebook chat with tommy & asked him if he wanted to go out & watch the bears game on sunday. i gave him my number because sometimes facebook doesnt send messages to my phone & he said he only knew his work schedule through saturday & that he would have to let me know if he could hang out or not. so i waited for a reply up through sunday about an hour before the game started.....nothing. i pretty much feel like i got stood up. seriously, is it that hard to take 5 seconds out of your life & send someone a text or whatever saying that you cant make it somewhere?! no, its really not that difficult. honestly, thats one of my biggest pet peeves. its just plain rude.
secondly, something is seriously wrong with my truck. whenever i brake something starts grinding but it also does that if i take a turn too sharply or if i just start moving. what the fuck?!?! i dont have money to fix this shit. i barely have enough money for gas!
and third, my sister is a complete fucking twat. she is ripping my family apart! she tried to push susie down the stairs this morning then denied she did anything. then we all get a mass text from my mom saying that shes had enough of our shit & she wants us all out by the end of this week.

FUCK EVERYTHING.

gahhhh

the chapter we're on in my social psych class is on affection, romantic love, friendship, etc. and we have to do a discussion board posting on what we read & so i was looking at what other people wrote so i looked at the guy that i like's posting & what the fuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkk?!?!?! he was like, yeah id love to be in a relationship again and have a girlfriend, but i just havent found the right girl. then something like, most guys are asses and just want action, but i would show passionate love toward a future girlfriend. and ughhhhh hes so cute (except the whole, not finding the right girl, part threw me off a bit). ok so does this just prove that im looking too much into this & that he obviously doesnt have the same feelings for me as i do for him? why is life so fucking complicated?! im not going to lie, i really like this guy & i really would love for something more than a friendship to come out of all of this. but in all reality, now im not sure how likely this is going to be :/

it can only go up from here?

today wasnt too bad seeing him. we talked about a bunch of different things, he made me laugh. i dont know, i think it was definitely less awkward. i think the one thing that really decreased my confidence & kind of my mood all together, was the i walked in silence by myself to my car. no attempt to wait for me or walk with me. i think that was the only thing that was the most, i guess, upsetting in a way? i mean, i dont want to sound like a crazy stalker or something or some kind of lunatic but i just really think i want something to happen from all of this. anna said it will get better and i believe her. i made my move, now i guess i just have to wait on him to make his. for some reason, and i know this will sound crazy, but he kept trying to say something but he either said he forgot waht he was going to say or he just stopped talking completely. in my crazy, infatuated mind, i seriously wanted to believe that he wanted to ask if we could hang out sometime. of course, like i said, im a little nuts so im sure it wasnt that at all. he never did tell me what he wanted to say though. anyway, im home now & im quite hungry. ive got work at 4 & i have no idea what im going to do in the meantime. ill figure something out. if anything else happens, ill post something if i remember :)

YES, OH MY GOD!!!!

30 SECONDS TO MARS ADDED A SECOND SHOW FOR THEIR 'MARS 300' SCHEDULED FOR TUESDAY DECEMBER 6TH @ HAMMERSTEIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO SAVE MY MONEY; I AM GETTING THOSE TICKETS & FINDING A WAY TO GET TO NEW YORK EVEN IF IT FUCKING KILLS ME!!!!! (hopefully it will kill me after the show)

last night...

after i posted, i took a shower then decided i should probably go to sleep since by the time i got out of the shower it was 12:05. i had already shut down my computer but i didnt turn my phone off so i thought maybe i would check  my twitter & facebook. twitter: nothing interesting. facebook: waiting for the page to load.....REPLY MESSAGE!!!!! :D i was sooooo happy. he said that he would definitely want to chill some time, although he's usually really busy with work but as soon as he's free he would let me know :) i was so relieved that he messaged me back before tuesday. the nervous/panic feeling is gone, but the nervousness of seeing & talking to him on tuesday will definitely come back. i texted anna & melissa from work to let them know. havent heard back from melissa, but anna was so fucking happy for me. anyway, just wanted to let the world know that i was finally able to sleep peacefully last night. now ive got to go write my 4 page life-span psychology essay thats due tomorrow night lol, im a failure.

this city is my city

listening to "This City" by Patrick Stump. its so weird listening to his solos stuff when im so used to fall out boy. i dont know, its just such a different sound but its pretty good. today really only consisted of waking up at 10:45, watching the first half of the bears game, buying some stuff for the apartment then going down there with susie to finish painting & start cleaning. thankfully the painting is done. we put up the shower curtain, put the cup & soap pump in the bathroom after i cleaned all but the floor. then we hung up most of our blackhawks stuff in the front hallway. thats most of what we got done. surprisingly we were down there for like 6 hours but it didnt seem like we got as much done as i had hoped we would get done. but i guess, better something got done rather than nothing. ok, so the real reason i wanted to blog was just to complain some more that i messaged this guy on thursday & still havent got a reply back from him. hes been on facebook and updated his status & posted pictures but i havent gotten a reply. ughh, im starting to get nervous again. we have class together on tuesday and i dont know what hes going to say, if he says anything at all. LKJAER;OIHDFVN'APSDFK IM SO NERVOUS! im going to go read some pych-today articles to see if what i did was the right decision and see how these events usually turn out on average. when & if he responds ill post again or if he doesnt, ill post when i get his reaction on tuesday.....oh god save me :/

fuck the world & all who inhabit it

last night i posted that i messaged the guy that i like on facebook and told him that i thought he was a sweet guy & that if he wanted, we should hang out. well today ive been constantly checking facebook to see if he messaged me back: nothing. so i went to work this morning did all that fun shit, then me, my little sister & her 2 friends went to the apartment to paint then we came home. i checked facebook (still no message) but he updated his status. im hoping that he either didnt see the message for some reason or he was getting ready to go to the concert hes going to tonight so he couldnt reply (im not a creep, it was on his facebook status that hes going to a concert tonight, which is conviently located right do the street from my apartment where i was only a couple hours ago). i dont know, like i said last night, i dont want it to be awkward between us because we still have class together until december, but i dont want a negative reaction. ughhh why is life so frickin difficult?! then to top off that complete shit storm, i was just on jared leto's twitter page & he tweeted "HOLY SHIT, THE NYC SHOW SOLD OUT IN MINUTES!!! Thank you so much for that #MARS300" so now im insanely depressed that im obviously not going to new york to see their final performance and im depressed & worried because i havent gotten a message back from the guy i like. oh, and the blackhawks are losing; thats the fucking cherry on top. i honestly dont want to go to class on tuesday if i dont get a reply back, that would be so fucking awkward. id be walking in blind, not knowing what to expect. but if i dont go that would make the pressure 10 times worse and then thursday i might actually want to kill myself. jesus, i dont know what to do with myself. i told him how i felt, now i feel like a complete dumbass. whatever i said what i needed to & he should be flattered that i worked up the courage to tell him how i felt, granted i did tell him through a facebook message but in all honesty, i would have chickened out if i tried to say it to his face. but who cares, at least i did it. i mean, really, we talk every class, we never pay attention to what were supposed to be doing, we're always laughing, id ont know if im reading too much into it, but i just want a nice person to be with. seriously, i kinda want a boyfriend at this point. im sick of sitting at home (like i am now) doing absolutely nothing (im actually leaving to get my sister from six flags in a few minutes, so technically im not doing nothing) with no one here with me. i really just want to sit with someone and hold someone's hand or lay down with someone. i mean, dont get me wrong i love being with anna, shes my best friend i love that i can talk to her about anything and i can say goofy things and she'll think its funny, but i guess i just truely want a boyfriend. its pretty sad that im 19, almost 20 years old and i dont have a boyfriend. this is the point in someone's life where people start realizing who they want to spend the rest of their life with. people are having kjids at 25, 26 and 27 years old and ive never had an actual boyfriend. i dont know whats wrong with me. i know im pretty antisocial but i dont know how to approach a situation like this. i guess telling, this guy that i like him was the first step in moving forward. im so afraid of rejection that i dont want to be the one to say that i like someone, so maybe thats my problem. then again, i dont talk to too many guys (like i said, because im antisocial) so that could also be the bigger issue.  ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is so frustrating. well, anna is actually on her way over then me, her & my mom are going to pick up my sister & her friend from six flags...fucking joy. when he (if he) messages me back, ill post what goes down (i.e. what he says & how i react) hopefully it will be a positive post, because god knows i need some positivity in my life right now. 

my day:

went from bad to worse to WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST DO?! it was bad because 30 Seconds To Mars's 300th & final show in New York is practically sold out and its only presale :/ this ijust sucks ass. it got worse because 30 minutes before i had to leave for work, the sink in the laundry room started to overflow and there was water all over the floor which i had to clean up :/ then "what the fuck did i just do?!" is because i messaged this guy that i like on facebook and told him that i think hes sweet and nice and really funny. i couldnt hit send so i asked my boss to do it. ughhhh i feel so stupid. im so afraid of what his reaction is going to be. i told anna and she seems to think that he'll be really nice in his response (if he responds at all) so idk. im just a nervous wreck. a part of me wishes i didnt do it because i still have to sit next to him in my social psych class for another 7 weeks, but another part of me is glad i did it because it honestly feels like a weight was lifted off my chest. it was seriously bothering me all day at work and then i messaged him (was still a little freaked out) but now i feel a little better.  i really hope i get a good response from him and i hope he doesnt think im a complete moron. oh god, i want to skip my class on tuesday (next ttime i see him) but i think that would just make it worse. ok, well i just wanted to get that out. going to watch a nightmare on elm street with my little sister then im going to bed. working in the morning then going to the apartment to start painting.

i wanted to cut my nails but i wound up biting them instead.

wow, havent been on in over a month. kinda hard to keep track of everything ive done in that span of time. im not even sure where to start. im literally sitting here trying to think of what to write.

ok, well this was the first thing that just popped into my head so ill start here: i sit next to this kid in one of my psychology classes; really sweet, funny, easy to talk to but i always keep eye contact between us brief because if i look at him to long i cant help but smile (lame, i know). anyway. in the past week or two hes been walking with me out to the parking lot, slowing down his walk so i can keep up (because if he kept his normal pace, he would practically be running) *checking twitter, hold on* anyway...hes just a nice guy. a little racist but nobodys perfect. ive just been thinking about him a lot recently. i know i havent known him very long, but it would be nice if something good came out of it all. i mean, we graduated together & he was in my journalistic writing class senior year but we never knew the other person even existed so this is a good start to something i guess. besides the latest boy, we're moving. i dont remember if i stated that in my last post, but yep...were moving to the city. away from comfy suburban life & into the hustle & bustle of the L system & homeless people trying to bum cigerettes & extra change off passersby. well, technically we will be living just north of the city, but sill, the train is half a block away & its a 15 minutes ride to the loop. me & my youngest sister are going to be sharing a studio apartment & my mom, her boyfriend & my other sister will be sharing a 2-bedroom apartment (in the same building of course). ughhh i DO NOT want to physically move; we have too much crap. all of my stuff & my little sisters stuff is pretty much moved but theres still 3/4 of the house to pack. its just a big headache. i think it will be kind of nice though to get out of the same routine in the same stupid, stuck-up, spoiled, rich kid neighborhood. plus, being so close to the city & with all the diversity means there will be more to do. luckily i have a job or else i would be stuck in the apartment doing nothing because everything to do in the city is so fucking expensive. another plus side is that anna can spend the night on monday nights whenever she wants to because she has a super late class on monday nights so she usually stays at her aunts house so shes not coming home at 11 pm every week. i dont know, im sure it wont be too bad. i think the worst part will be the driving back & forth. my gas tank will not like me too much for that. another thing that just came to my mind was what i was informed of today: 30 Seconds To Mars's 300th & FINAL show of this year & of their This Is War album tour is happening in New York on December 7th at the Hammerstein Ballroom. I really really REALLY want to go, but no one will ever get the ok from their parents to go to NY, my mom will NEVER agree to it & theres no way ill be able to scrounge up the money for a roundtrip plane ticket, a hotel room, cab fares & the ticket for the show. its so depressing because that would so amazing to go to & also really sad at the same time. but since i know going to the show will never happen, ive officially decided that instead of mourning MARS's break/last show i will be getting my MARS tattoos on December 7th to celebrate their 300th show...& no, i dont mean its the 300th show theyve ever performed, i mean its the 300th show theyve performed on this cycle of This Is War, which, coincidentely broke the Guinness World Record for "Most Shows Performed During a Single Album Cycle". 300 SHOWS JUST TO PROMOTE & PERFORMS SONGS FROM 'THIS IS WAR' OH MY GOD!!!!! this is one of the many, infinite reasons why i am so deeply involved & in love & inspired by this band. "We will never stop until the Echelon are happy" that quote came from the brilliant mind of Jared Leto who has taught me that you can always reach for the sky & acheive your dreams. of course, on the 7th of December i probably will spend most of the day crying because ill be so upset that theyll be taking a break but theyll be back eventually. im not saying that shouldnt take a break because i want to see them again & i want to hear new music (which is all true but like i said thats not the point) the point is that they NEED a break! they are so tired & none of the guys have been 100% recovered from illnesses. for the love of God, Jared was taken from a show via ambulance in Greece, i think. then another show the audience had to sing because Jared had no voice to sing at all. they need a break & a long one at that. When theyre ready, they will come back, maybe do another CD & tour again. so thats my plan: minimal mourning (haha, yeah right) & MARS tats :) i really cant think of anything else to write at this point since the majority of this post wound up being, of couse, about MARS lol. so until i can think of something else interesting to write, i guess ill leave on that note.

my iPod is on shuffle

Hmmm, where to begin? I started school. Tuesday will be the start of my 3rd week. Eww. My teachers are pretty nice. My math teacher is boring & monotone as fuck but my psychology teachers are all really cool. Im already sick of homework. I have zero motivation to get any of it done. Its a 3-day weekend due to tomorrow being Labor Day so Ill have one more day to procrastinate. Anyway, my mom still hasnt been able to find a job. She went for an interview on Friday but she is not confident at all that she got it. She said that the woman interviewing her started quizzing her on random things. She was totally unprepared and really doesnt think shes going to get the job. Me on the other hand, got a job at Happiness Is Pets. Im so glad because Im around puppies all day; something I enjoy, rather than sitting at a desk or serving people fast food. My 3rd and final training day is Wednesday then my boss will put me on the schedule. Aside from my previous experience with dogs, she liked my application because I live only 10 minutes away from the store; but heres the problem...we're moving. My mom and Rich cant afford the rent for our house anymore or the bills and my jackass dad isnt helping out in ANY way. He keeps shorting my mom on the child support checks, which I guess is illegal or something, but whatever, it doesnt effect me anymore anyway. So Rich has to live in an apartment downtown where he works for at least 2 or 3 days per week, so thats where we will be going. Unfortunately its only a 2 bedroom apartment, but hes going to talk to his boss to see if we can get the next available 3 bedroom or studio apartment. The good thing about all of this is that we dont have to pay rent, water or gas. We only need to pay electrcity, cooking gas and if we want internet or cable, which we're most likely going to get sometime in the near future. The other unfortunate thing is that its the 4 day of September & my mom was telling us that she doesnt have enough money for October, so I wouldnt be surprised if me moved in the next couple of weeks. It really sucks, but I know right where we will be living; right down the street from a popular concert venue...I guess thats good. I told Anna about it today & she was obviously upset. We both were in the kitchen crying because it just sucks, in general. Im going to be spending a million fucking dollars on gas to get to and from school and to and from work. Ughhh, this is not cool. Rich says that we should only be there for about a year; that by this time next year, we should be able to move back to Orland. Hopefully that happens, hopefully my mom finds a job soon because this is going to be way to hard for everyone. It really doesnt help that Im writing this, which is upsetting, and "Alibi" is playing on my iPod. I think, aside from being able to talk to Anna, 30 Seconds To Mars is my only other saving grace. I swear, its like everytime Im upset or pissed off, I can just go to my iPod and put their songs on shuffle. Their songs are so amazing & really know how to hit home. I actually just read a few notes that a girl I follow on Tumblr wrote to the guys & Im considering writing to them, juat to let them know how them impact my life everyday & how much they mean to me. Im literally starting to choke up as Im writing this. Im going to go start drafting a letter while listening to the best band in the entire world. <3

hmmm, where did i leave off...

havent blogged in about a week; now seemed like a good time to post something new :)  i applied to happiness is pets about 2 weeks ago & got a call back last thursday and they wanted to interview me. so i went for the interview on friday morning & i think she really liked me, so i start my first day of training on wednesday, and if i dont like the 3 training days, she wont put me on the schedule, so i guess technically i have a job lol :)  then friday night i went to anna's house for a little bit then headed to elmwood park to spend the night at stephanie's house. saturday we woke up at 6am to get ready to go to the brookfield zoo to meet blackhawks forward dave bolland. we got there at about 6:50 but they werent letting people into the parking lot so we went to mcdonalds to get some breakfast, wihle we were there we got hit on by old men (kinda creepy). we went back to the zoo & waited in the riverside/brookfield high school parking lot for the zoo to open. we were watching the very attractive freshman soccer team practice before their 9am game (cougarville). at 9:30 the zoo gates opened and we parked the car. we waited in line for about 30 minutes until the zoo itself opened. when it did, we ran to where the meet & greet was going to take place. we were about 10th in line, so id say getting up at 6 & waiting was definitely worth it. the people that were behind us in line were really nice & had 3 adorable little kids who were so well-behaved (thankfully). they saved our spot while we went to the bathroom & went to check out what games & activities were set up; we got free 2011-2012 blackhawks regular game schedules, $5 tickets for blackhawks training camp, free posters of joel quinnville, took pictures with carboard cut outs of patrick kane & jonathan toews & one picture with a head cut out of a hawks player holding the stanley cup, we met 4 girls from the ice crew (2 of them we had already met when we met brent seabrook & the 1 girl, talia, remembered us), and we played shoot the puck (i went 3-3 & got a rally towel & steph went 2-3 & got a patrick sharp poster). we got back in line & they started handing out wristbands about 20 minutes later. after we got ours, the people behind us asked us to save their spot so they could look around at the games & activities as well. they came back about an hour later & then it was only 20 minutes left until Dave Bolland showed up. everyone started cheering when he pulled up & he is way cuter in person ;)  such a sweet guy. they didnt have any action-shot posters of just him, so luckily i brought my blackhawks stanley cup champions poster for him to sign. steph had him sign her "ONE GOAL< ACHEIVED" book. he was so sweet & so chill. he asked me how my summer was & asked if i was gearing up for the season & i told him thank you & he told me to enjoy the rest of my day & i think i shook his hand but i honestly dont remember because i was so excited lol. they didnt cut off our wristbands when we left, so that was good, because then we could keep them. we were standing by the rail so we could take more picture of bolland from the side when we saw his assistant dude open a box of action-shot posters! ughhh. so we called him over and asked if we could each have a poster. he brought us a stack of like 12 (a little unnecessary) and we asked if we could get them signed, but unfortunately we couldnt. we handed some of the posters out to people who didnt have wristbands so they could at least get something out of the experience. we walked back to the car & steph was really upset because she didnt want to have to prop open her book on her hawks shelf because there would be no room. so we went back to the car & put all our stuff back then steph decided that we should get back in line & have him sign the posters.....so we did. we walked ot the back of the wristband line (in front of the line of 100 or so people who didnt get there in time for them) and waited, once again to meet dave bolland hahahaha. we were acting like we got our wristbands & got out of line, and now we were getting in line to get our pictures signed. we got up there and, so it didnt seem too obvious, stephanie asked for her poster to be personalized & made out to Beth & i asked for mine, also to be personalized, but to be made out to Stephanie...so he wouldnt really notice, well, that totally failed, because he looked at me when i spelled out steph's name but he just smiled :)  this time, they were cutting off the wristbands but we got to keep them. we walked away with huge smiles on our faces then went back to the car to put the posters away. we cmae back into the zoo, wanting to look at some of the animals, but wound up just going to the dolphin show :)  it was so fun. we sat 3rd row (in the spash zone), watched all the tricks they could do & got splashed 3 times. i got some really cool pictures & videos from the show. after the zoo, we went back to steph's house. sheila & ted made brats, italian sausage, potatoes, velveeta mac & cheese & salad for dinner....YUM!!! :D  mr. jim came over straight from work then we went to his son joey's baseball game. (btw, joey is very very cute) ;)  anyway, joey's team won by like 17 runs. we went out for ice cream then went home. i decided to sleep over again at their house, so steph & i fell asleep, yet again, to ghost adventures. we woke up this morning at around 9:30, took showers then waited for her boyfriend CJ to get there. he was really nice, so im happy that steph found a good guy. we walked to bacci's for pizza & met up with steph's friend amanda & their boss's daughter mariah. after lunch, we took mariah to HIP mall to see her mom then she wanted to go to windor's & try on dresses then go to claire's then to kohls to try on more dresses. we took her for ice cream then back home then amanda dropped me, steph & CJ off back at steph's house. i stayed there for about20 minutes before i decided i wanted to head back home. it was such an amazing weekend and im so happy i get to go back there in 3 weeks for blackhawks training camp :)  tonight, the VMAs are on MTV. lady gaga is the opening performance, jared leto is presenting an award & 30 seconds to mars is nominated for 3 awards: best cinemetography for "hurricane", bes editing for "hurricane" & best direction for "hurrincane". i seriously hope they win all 3 because they very much deserve them. so now i leave you. im going to hang up my poster again & the rest of my blackhawks posters are going to go on the back of my bedroom door replacing my robert pattinson shrine :)

good day went to shit

i started my sophmore year of college yesterday...cool. my math class is ok. according to ratemyprofessor.com he was hot....yeah, totally not hot at all. he looks like a midget that fell asleep in a tanning bed; good lord. today was pretty good. my child psych & social psych classes are decent thus far. the teachers are both really nice. i have my life-span psych class tonight so hopefully that goes well too becuase i dont want to have a shitty night class...not a good way to end a tuesday. that was the good part of my day. the shitty part came when i left my social psych class to find that it was pouring rain outside. i went to my car, tried to start it.....nothing. tried again.....nothing. FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i called my mom and she put rich on the phone, he asked me if i started it like he showed me (the gear shift wire that connects to the engine is really old and starting to come undone) and it still wouldnt start. so he was going to drive up and get me, but i finally got it started after sitting there like an ass for about 10 minutes. i then went to get gas, but of course the only station i go to has only 2 pumps open becuase they were working or something on the other 4 so i had to use the pump by the deisel pump (mind you, its still raining) and theres not fucking cover over the pump so as im getting gas, im getting soaked :/ got back in the car, went home, drenched, got some warm clothes on then my mom asked me what was wrong so i told her my truck was unreliable, then she got snotty and told me its not her fault and that i need to get a job and get it fixed.....ummm, HELLO?! what does she think ive been doing for like the past fucking 8 months????? no place is hiring or if they are, they dont fucking call me for an interview (bastards). so ive been locked in my room for the past almost 4 hours on facebook, twitter, youtube & tumblr doing absolute shit. (actually i was reblogging pics of 30 seconds to mars, but ya know). 30STM has been playing practically the whole time ive been home and yeah, thats pretty much it. i really dont want to go to my night class and im not looking forward to school or babysitting tomorrow or thursday. ughhhhhh, life is rough.

another late night entry

its almost 4am...awesome. there was a pretty bad thunderstorm this morning that woke me up somewhere in the 7 o'clock hour and periodically woke me up until about 9:30am. today was the day me, anna, kate, susie & clare went to woodridge, IL to meet tom felton aka draco malfoy from harry potter (duh). oh my fricking god, the place was packed like a bitch. we were in the very back of the line in the very back of the building when we got there at 2:45. there had to be a good 1,000+ people there....it was insane. it was quite humid but thankfully it wasnt 95 degrees out like it has been for the past week. we waited there and some guy was walking around that worked for the theater saying that there was a 99.9% chance we werent going to be able to meet tom felton....thanks for being super optimistic dude....so we were all getting kinda of upset, but we stayed, because no one in their right mind is stupid enough to get out of that line and leave. and to all the people that i did see get out of line and leave, i have one thing to say to you........HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! we waited for 3 hours just to get into the doors, 5 minutes to get from the doors to the cashier, then 30 or so minutes to get from the cashier to tom <3 (once we were in the doors, we were gaurenteed to meet him!!) it was completely worth the wait. there were 2 more totally awesome things: #1. the 2 girls behind us were very nice. we were talking and whatnot and they ordered jimmy johns and had it delivered curbside to where we were standing in line!, super funny. #2. we found elizabeth mueller & kara hallgren! we let them come in line with us and they brought with them a guy from the Czech Republic whos visiting the USA (tayler met him when she was on a mission trip) he was really nice & funny & no one could really understand him. and apparently when i sprayed myself with anna's perfume he was standing behind me and leaned in and smelled me after i handed the spray bottle back lol...such a cutie. it was so great seeing them though & im so glad we did see them because they got to meet tom & they were so greatful :) we got through the doors, tried as hard as we could to get a glimpse of tom (all i could really see was his hair and the top of his forehead). we got to the cashier & paid for if we were getting an autograph or a picture ($25 each....fucking rip off) then we held our cameras up above our heads to get pictures of tom while he was signing and taking pictures with the other fans. we got closer and closer and our pictures got progressively better and finally we were like 5 feet from him!!! oh my god, he is so gorgeous! <3 his eyes are ice blue & i could seriously melt in them :D the foreign kid (who i called fez) went first, then me, anna, elizabeth, susie, clare then kate. i had been telling anna that when i got up by him, i would smell him to see if he smelled good and i was so engrossed in his beauty (sehr lame) that i completely forgot! but both nora & anna said he smelled good, so ill take their word for it :) i got up there after fez & tom said "hello lovely, how are you?" and all i could manage to say was "Hello" (wow, im a fucking moron) then, this might be my favorite part (aside from being called lovely by tom felton in his sexy british accent), we put our hands on each others backs and im pretty sure our hips touched as we got our picture taken together hahaha, loved it. after the picture he said, "thank you, sweetheart" and smiled *aweeee* then i went back and got my picture. in short, it was super fun & my hip touched tom felton's hip.....'twas a good day, indeed. after everyone got the picture print outs, we said bye to elizabeth, kara & fez (who were going to see HP7 in 3D) then the 5 of us went out to get food. we got back to the theater about 5 minutes before they started seating our theater. for the 3rd time in 10 days, i saw HP7:DH2 & cried....again. still super sad that its all over. ive said this many times, but im going to say it again, when lucius & narcissa are trying to call draco over to join them & voldemort near the end of the movie, ive never wanted to tackle the theater screen so bad in my life when they show draco.....omg, that blonde hair, all wavy & dirty.....so sexy. i literally cannot get enough of that 3 second clip <3 so that was my day. it was so much fun and im so glad my sister told us about tom being at the theater. it was totally worth the drive & totally worth spending $25 to take a picture with him. my contacts are starting to get fuzzy so im going to bed. gaze upon my awsomeness & my future husband <3

HP7DH2 & Amanda

I wound up not having to work yesterday so I got an invite to go see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 again with my friend Amanda, who I havent seen in almost a year. We got in for free which was pretty cool because her friend is really high up on the chain of command at the local theater. It was nice that we got in for free also because we saw the movie in 3D on the Ultrascreen & that costs about $15, so yeah, free is good :)  Once again, I cried. SO depressing that its all over, but I wont get into that again. If you want to read my rant, look at my previous post. Oh by the way, Draco's wavy hair at the end is still spectacularly sexy ;)  Speaking of spectacularly sexy, [this is way off topic but bear (bare?) with me], I walked outside yeasterday to start the car so I could drive my brother to school and I looked across the street and saw the very attractive, very tall hot church boy (as me and Anna like to call him) mowing the front grass with nothing but basketball shorts on. His dad is the pastor at a church near by and to my misfortune, the first and only thing I saw to myself when I see this wonderful sight is, "oh my Lord", hahaha oops. Anyway, that was way off topic. After the movie, we went back to my house and hung out there for a while. My aunt, uncle and two little cousins were over so I got to see them, which doesnt happen too often. Then me and Amanda went back out so we could pick up her bosses son from work in Countryside because the power went out. Then she dropped me back off at home. It was so great seeing her. I honestly dont remember the last time we hung out, and that is totally not cool. I hung out with the family a bit, ate some food, watched Who's Line Is It Anyway then went to bed early, and by early I mean around 1am lol. That was pretty much my day. Oh, and I found out what Sarah & Pat decided to name their son......Dominic Reid Hamilton, dear God thats a horrible name. They wanted something Gaelic, yet they chose something Italian? Way to go, dumbasses! Ok well, if I find it necessary to post anything else I will later. Right now Im going to watch MTV MARSunplgged online, since I missed it last night (BOOO!!!) Haha, ok then :)

saddest 2 days of my life

Thursday July 14, 2011: Saddest day of my life numero uno: Q101's final day on the air :'(

I was so depressed when I was listening to Q101 during Wednesday's Last Letter Game when Electra said, "we're trying to be nostalgic and not dwell on the fact that tomorrow is our last day as Q101 DJs." That really hit home for me. I was throughly saddened. Q101 is my favorite radio station and some doucher that used to work for/own part of the Tribune (he's part of the reason the Trib filed for bankruptcy) bought out Q101, 97.9 The Loop & some radio station in New York and he's turning them all into talk/news radio. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?!?!?!?!? I honestly didnt know how to react. I've known for a few weeks that Q101 was going off, but the last air day was supposed to be August 1st not July 14th :/  Anyway, I spent all day Thursday listening to Q101. I woke up at 8:30am, listened to the rest of the Sherman & Tingle show, then listened to Electra & her final Last Letter Game -- she switched it up and did a LLG Artist Edition -- then i listened to Tim Virgin and some of Pogo. Unfortunately I missed the special Local.101 segment they aired but thats ok. Still, its really sad. The weird thing is that Sherman & Tingle said that Q101 was officially off the air starting on Friday the 15th at 10am and they didnt know what was going to on the station. But its Saturday and music is still playing like normal. The only thing thats different is that theres no DJs. Its just music & commercials; kind of like listening to satellite radio but on a FM station. Gosh, I really miss the DJs, especially Electra. She was honestly my favorite. I still follow Q101 & Electra on Twitter and I like Q101, Electra and Sherman & Tingle's Facebook pages so thats pretty much the only way I'll be able to keep up with those guys. Ughhhhh, so sad.

Friday July 15th, 2011: Saddest day of my life numero dos: the end of Harry Potter :'(

Well, I've been watching the Harry Potter movies since 2001 when The Sorcerer's Stone came out on VHS (haha, I dont even think DVDs were popular yet lol). My brother and I have all 7 books that we've gotten among the years from our aunts and uncles for Christmas. I've actually never read any of the books but I have yet to do so (of course I've seen all the movies so I know what happens). Anyway, I've been waiting so impatiently for the final movie to come out and yesterday was finally the day. Me and Anna were going to go see it at the midnight premiere but the tickets for seeing it in 2D sold out so we just decided to go see it opening day at 7pm. I bought a shirt from Hot Topic that says "BUTTERBEER: The Three Broomsticks" on it , bought Harry Potter glasses and drew Harry's scar on my forehead. Twas a fun time :)  We got to the theater an hour before the movie started and waited in line to go into the auditorium. We got in there and waited anxiously. The previews were kind of shitty except for the preview for the Dark Knight Rises, which looks totally fucking amazing, then the movie started. Anna started crying as soon as the Warner Brothers logo came up on the screen. I thought the beginning was a little slow at first, but then again I didnt feel like myself at the start of the movie, for some reason I was unusually bored and just wanted to go home, lol, it was really weird. The movie was absolutely amazing. There are some spoiler alerts coming up so if for some reason someone is actually reading this and you havent seen the movie yet....BEWARE! First of all, Ron and Hermionie finally kiss each other!! <3 And it wasnt just a peck on the cheek, it was a full on, romantic, "we've been waiting 10 years for this to happen" kiss :D That really made Anna happy, and I'm pretty sure she cried then too, but then again she cried through the whole movie hahaha, love her. I started bawling my eyes out when Fred, Remus & Tonks died (fuck that shit), I laughed and started crying out of joy when Mrs. Weasley killed Bellatrix after Bellatrix tried to kill Ginny....and what does Molly say to Bellatrix? "not my daughter, you BITCH!" FUCK YEAH MRS. WEASLEY!!!!!!! God, i love her :)  Hmmm, what else?....Uhhhh, damn, brain cramp. Oh, well if you havent already guessed, Draco was hot as fuck and I couldnt sit there thinking straight while he was on the screen ;)  Oh my frickin lanta, I was so sad when Snape died & when you find out that he really was on Harry's side the whole time!!! OMG, so heartbreaking when Harry was looking at Snape's memory in the pensieve and Snape walked into Harry's room right after Voldemort killed Lily and James :'(  He seriously loved her. Poor guy. Anyway, Neville Longbottom is honestly a new favorite character of  mine. He was so brave and he confessed his love for Luna <3  This movie was filled with so much last minute romance :)  Oh yeah and Lavender Brown died too :/  Which was pretty depressing & I think it was Hermionie that had the saddest facial expression. If you havent already figured out, Voldemort dies...duhhh, actually so does Harry, but I wont ruin too much (hahaha). The Malfoy family really hates being so tied up with Voldemort so they kinda just peace out after that lol. You dont really see much of them throughout the movie. I think you only see Draco like 3 or 4 times & Harry saves his life when Goyle set the room of requirement on fire...dumbass. So yeah, turns out the elder wand actually belongs to Harry!! Woah!, plot twist! Actually no, because if I read the books I would have known that haha. Draco disarmed Dumbledore in the 6th movie, but Snape killed him, then Voldemort took the wand from Dumbledore's grave & it wouldnt respond correctly to Voldemort's spells so he killed Snape because he knew that Snape killed Dumbledore which inturn would disarm Dumbledore; what Voldemort didnt know was that Draco disarmed him before Snape killed him and in part 1 of the 7th movie, Harry disarmed Draco (who disarmed Dumbledore) SOOOOO, the elder wand belongs to Harry because he disamred Draco who disarmed Dumbledore.....it all makes sense but they explain it in the movie. I'm sure my explaination is much more complicated than it needs to be haha. The other thing I really liked was that they put the epilouge at the end of the movie :)  19 years later: Harry & Ginny are married with a son named Albus Severus Potter, Ron & Hermionie are married with 2 kids I think (names unknown to movie-goers) Draco & Astoria (Greengrass) are married with a son (name unknown to movie-goers). By the way, Draco did not age very well hahaha. It was just really cute because it ended with Harry, Ron & Hermionie watching their kids leave on the Hogwarts Express <3 Oh my gosh, I'm literally getting choked up right now. I seriously cant believe its actually over. I cant believe there are no more Harry Potter movies. I really have nothing else in life to look forward to :/  I dont even think I want to see Breaking Dawn (thats a complete lie, but it makes me feel better to say that). Ughhhhhhhhh I fucking love those movies, I grew up with those movies & now, 10 years later, theyre over. The actors are all so grown up and beautiful and I'm so lucky I got to experience what future kids could only dream of <3 Ok so I'm pretty sure I'm going to end my rant on how my life is now over. To end on a good note, here are so lovely picture to gaze upon <3


Tom (Draco), Dan (Harry), Rupert (Ron) & Matt (Neville)


 Alan Rickman (Snape), Tom, Emma (Hermionie), Dan, Rupert & Matt


Ralph Fiennes (Voldemort), Dan, Emma, Rupert & Tom


AWWWW BABIES!!!! <3


ooooooh baby, puberty is a lovely thing <3


awww, when will there be a HP reunion? because I want to be at that party please :)

i remembered!

ok so as i said last night, i didnt realize that i forgot to mention jamboree so that post was not what i had intended on writing. anyway, what i wanted to post was about milwaukee's summerfest. that band i saw at jamboree, greek fire is so good that i started following them on twitter. im also friends with moon aka phil sneed on facebook. so ive been listening to them nonstop since jamboree. i then accidently stumbled upon the summerfest lineup and greek fire was in there. so i talked to anna and she said she would go see them with me. we drove 2 hours in my truck that has no air conditioning on what was probably the hottest day of the summer just to see a one hour performance then we drove back home.....that was the plan & it was totally worth it. so i bought the tickets the day they were playing which was saturday july 2, anna came over then it was off to wisconsin! we drove 2 hours, got a little lost when we were supposed to get off at the right exit, got there, parked, watched the previous performaer finish their set (which was horrible & scary) then we moved up to the second row to watch greek fire. it wasnt a pit, there were bleacher seat benches so at least we were able to sit down and wait for them to come on. they came out and no one was standing. then kinda one by one everyone was getting up. the energy these guys bring is insane! they really know how to connect with the crowd and make everyone feel like they are part of the show. johhny on drums, mark on bass, ryan on lead guitar & moon on vocals....all in all, an amazing & talented group of people. moon was walking around in the crowd and walking acrosee the benches, dancing with people, giving everyone high fives and really interacting with everyone. at one point, he was walking in front of the barracade giving everyone who had their hand out a high five so i hopped over the bench and stuck my hand out and got a high five from him hahaha, cleverness :) so they performed for an hour, and people really seemed to enjoy them. after their last song, which was "dreaming in deja vu" (which i happen to be listening to now) moon said that he would be over by the merchandise tent for about an hour & invited people to stop over and say hi, maybe get a picture & an autograph. so me and anna went over there. we waited for about 10 or 15 minutes and i got my summerfest ticket signed, talked to him a little about how much i loved them at jamboree & how when he was walking around the crowd, his microphone cord got wrapped around me and anna and how happy i was to drive up from chicago just to see them then anna took a picture of the 2 of us. in the end, it was totally worth the gas money to go there and back and it really was a fun time. i really hope to see them again in the future and mybe meet the rest of the band. theyre first cd is coming out on itunes next month, so im really excited about that. i really want to support these guys in every way i can because there are really doing so well for themselves thus far. i think after their set, more people walked away with a new band on their mind than they did when they first got there.


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me & Moon after Greek Fire's performance :)

i lied

its 4:25am & i have to drive my brother to school at 12:30 which is on like 8 hours so ill post about summerfest tomorrow if i remember. bye bye for now.

what the hell?!

i just fucking realized that i never blogged after i went to jamboree!!!!! dammit, why am i so fucking slow?! ok, well jamboree was on saturday june 4 & today happens to be thursday july 7....a little late on this one lol. ok so jamboree was the shit. red jumpsuit apparatus was really good. surprisingly i wasnt completely bored & theyre new single "reap" is really good; already have it on my ipod. the next band up to perform was a band called greek fire....never heard of them. BUT i was pleasantly surprised & must say that aside from 30STM, i think they were my favorite set of the night :D they were so good!!!!! this is rare, but this is a band where i find every memeber attractive :) the lead singer (Phil "Moon" Sneed) and the lead guitarist (Ryan Phillips) are from story of the year (amazing) and they formed greek fire and i dont know, theyre just really good. i love everything about them. theyre songs are all really good, the energy they bring on stage is absolutely thrilling & lively, theyre performance is breath-taking & they really know how to have fun and interact with the crowd. i was blown away to say the least. actually, im listening to them right no won my ipod :) my favorite song by them as of right now is "break me down" yes, its absolutely amazing and i crank the car stereo when i turn it on. anyway, the next band up was anberlin & they were really great. so glad they played "feel good drag". next was AWOLNATION (or maybe AWOL came before anberlin? idk) anywho, yes, very good band. the only song i knew was "sail" but i really liked "soul wars". i also got my little sister into listening to them :) *success* after AWOLNATION was sum 41. never saw they live before but they were really good. lots of energy & responded really well to the crowd. the worst performance of the night goes to.......*drum roll*......ed kowalcik (sp?) from live. OH MY EFFING GAWDDDDDDDD me and anna wanted to fucking shoot ourselves!!!!!!!!! every damn song sounded the same and it felt like his set was never ending! :/ that would have been a good time for a bathroom break if we had had seats. oh well, we had to endure it. the first big headliner was pap roach. kate saw them when they opened for nickelsuck (aka nickelback) and said they were excellenc...and she was right :) mmmmm, jacoby shaddix <3 and the guitar player totally had a crush on me and anna ;) they really brought a lot of energy too. i was surprised that there was no moshing though. in all honesty, i thought that as soon as they came out everyone was going to push to the front and we would be squashed because we were in the very front against barracade, but we werent which was good :) papa roach was awesome and i really hope to see them live again some day. next main headliner was seether......fucking YAWN! gosh, next time guys, at least pack your enthusiasm when you hit the road. jeez. after every song the lead singer said :thank you" then walked off stage to get a drink of water. then they just walked off stage like nbd, good lord. long story short, the reason i went to jamboree was to see 30 seconds to mars. they were the main and final headliner. since this was one of their last shows in the US for quite some time (talking a break after this world tour) they were the big band that 3/4 of the crowd was there to see. THEY WERE AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i havent even gotten to the good part about their performance. anyway, lemme build up to it lol. so they came out to "escape" and then they played "NOTH" i dont remember the order but they also played "TIW", "ABL", "attack", "search&destroy", "CTTE", the chorus to "hurricane" on acoustic, and they closed it with "K+Q". so i got some super amazing pictures that might be a little too epic to put on this post, but maybe if youre good ill consider it ;)so i was practically 5 feet from jared leto and a few times i was about 5 feet from tomo. unfortunately i didnt get a chance to see shanimal because i was on tomo's side of the stage, its ok, i know he was there. haha. i saw him come out and watched him do the drum intro to "escapse, after that, i really couldnt see him. so they were just incredible and before they played "CTTE", jared called about 10 people up on stage to dance and jump around and whatnot. they i think after "CTTE" he did the chrous to "hurricane" on acoustic then it was time for "K+Q". as allMARS family members know, K+Q is your chance to get up on stage and sing/dance/jump/act a fuckin fool on stage with the guys. so jared is walking around pointing people out in the crowd to come up on stage for the song. he points out the guy standing next to me, the girl behind me and guy standing next to anna (dammit). they, because we Echelon are all fucking crazy, everyone deceided they needed to go up on stage and jared wasnt stopping anyone. the more the fucking merrier :) so people started hoisting themselves over other people and crowd surfing to the front and running up on stage hahaha. so i started jumping trying to throw myself over the barracde, but so many people were shoving and this was after jared told everyone to take 3 big steps forward lol so im obviously presed against the bar with no where to go. then i deceide to start screaming at the guard to get me out and i must have looked like i was in pain from the way he was looking at me hahaha, fucking natural born actor right here. the first guard kept shaking his head no like "no im not pulling you out" (thanks alot douche) so then i got another guard's attention and started pulling on the sleeve of his shirt to get his attention.....with a little convincing, a lot of screaming and most likely a painful look on my face, he pulled me over the bar (my ass crack was totally making an appearence) and i ran up on stage to jump and act like a crazy mofo with my all time favorite band in the world <3 :D yes, i was fucking on stage at my very first 30STM show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (even thought it really wasnt their show, but who fucking cares) i took a video of being up there and jared walking really close by me and of tomo standing 3 inches from me. again, i was shaken that i dont even think it crossed my mind to go over by shannon :/ its ok because when they were done i got a couple pictures of his drumset :) it was so exhilerating!!!!! i really cant even describe how an experience like that feels! <3 there was so much going through my brain. i honestly dont even remember if i was singing along to K+Q or not lol. anyway the last thing jared said was that he will never ever forget that night, dont worry, jay, neither will i :) luckily it wasnt hard to find anna sice she was right in the front. after i got some pictures, i found her and, no joke, started crying (dont worry, they were tears of joy) i was THAT happy :D i bought a MARS shirt and we walked out to where my mom was picking us up and when my mom asked what was wrong i started crying again because i still couldnt believe what had happened. im seriously so weird, but i love it. anyway, i cannot believe i forgot to mention jamboree! good fricking lord. well since i forgot to mention that concert, that made this post 10 fucking times longer than i wanted it to be. ill post a seperate one with what i really wanted to say hahaha. sicne you were so nice and read all the way until the end, ill post a picture that i took of jared leto standing right in front of me and anna on stage :) ENJOY! <3

another dollar, another day

Last night was concert 2 of 3: Panic! At The Disco at the Riviera. So much fun :) Anna and I left Suse, Clare & Tara in line & went downtown over by Buckingham Fountain for a couple hours, hit up Subway then went back to the Riv. The show was great, it actually started 30  minutes early. Funeral Party was absolutely terrible, fun. was ok & Panic! was, well, they were amazin as usual :D  It was the hottest concert I've ever been too & the stage workers were dicks & through maybe 3 water bottles to the crowd, of course only to the people in the front. But once Panic! got on, they sprayed us multiple times with water bottles & had the guards down on the floor hand out bottles & have us pass them around to one another, which was an absolute miracle. Oh my God, it was so frickin hot in there too. It was the sweatiest, hottest show I've ever been to but it was also super fun. Panic! played my favorite song, "The Only Difference Between Martydom and Suicide Is Press Coverage" & they played Anna's favorite song, "Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her  Clothes Off" (mouth full haha) Susie blacked out but met back up with us, just in time to hear and see them perform their cover of "Carry On My Wayward Son" by Kansas. That too was totally awesome. I took some pretty cool pictures & just had a great time. Brendon is simply amazing & sexy, Spencer is totally awesome & funny, Ian was high & Dallon is so much sexier in person ;) Oh yeah & Brendon performed "Always" on the balcony right above where me & Anna were standing & in the balcony 2 over from him was William Beckett aka the elad singer of The Academy Is...!!!! How totally cool! I checked his Twitter afterwards & he was there because he hasnt seen the guys from P!ATD in such a long time. Aw man, what an awesome night. I think one of the best things was that I didn't even get any sunburn! Of course I sat there peeling my dry sunburn not its all nasty & hardened & its kinda gross to talk about lol. One more concert most likely until Lolla & thats next Friday at the United Center to see NKOTBSB; I'm so excited to see Nick Carter again!! :) <3 For the rest of the night, I think I'm going to stalk Jared Leto a little more, watch some movies then do my nails. So, for now, goodnight blogging world. See you another time.

i want to fuck this man

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can someone please explain to me how one person can be so fucking attractive?! i have been obsesssing over bradley cooper lately. im not sure why. hes so gorgeous & im dedicating this post to him <3  i watched the hangover last night & i just got finished watching the a-team......god, im just in awe over his sexiness. heres the list: his body is wonderful, his hair is amazing, his smile is perfect & words cant even describe how beautiful his eyes are; i could honestly melt in them. *swoons* i usually dont like when guys have chest hair, but since its bradley cooper, hey, im not complaining. and yeah, and limitless was an amazing movie too. i dont even know what else to say. hes perfect. hes a god among men & i just want him. too bad its like a law somewhere where hollywood stars only date other stars or celebrities. why cant average, everyday people get a piece of a-list ass once in a while? why cant my mom date george cloony like shes always wanted to? wht can i have bradley cooper? ughhh, lifes not fair. maybe im going overboard. i would love to meet him & talk with him about his career. how he got started?, why he does what he does?, what kinds of movies are his favorite to star in?, who is one person he really wants to work with? so many questions that ill never get answers to because hes probably always travelling and always working and more than likely has swarms of women that faint at the very sound of his name. hes specatular and talented & yes, im going back to what i originally said, i want him, all to  myself. im not a crazy stalker, i just think im in love <3 

new job, back hurts, no school

last regular day of school was thursday WOOHOO!!! ive got one final on tuesday from 8-10am then my other 3 on thursday from 8am-4pm.....kill me :/  on the upside, besides the fact that im almost done with school, is that i got a babysitting job! so happy :)  shes adorable. shes got aspergers syndrome but she communicates really well around me and isnt sheltered or afraid which is really good. shes addicted to goldfish & toy story 3....no joke lol. but i was only supposed to work on wednesdays, thursdays & every other friday but she asked me today if i could work monday through friday full time, which means more money to do stuff this summer & more time going places and taking her places. i think this will be fun. the only downside is that they live practically in the middle of nowhere. theyre backyard is a corn field & thats all you can see, so thunderstorms are going to be my worst nightmare when im there late nights. other than that, their house is beautiful and her mom & her mom's boyfriend are really nice. in all honesty, i kind of thought her mom's boyfriend was kinda cute.....even though hes 38 lol. but yeah, hopefully ill start blogging a little more since summer is rolling around so for now, see ya!

its friday, friday.....god i hate that song

sooooooooo, im supposed to be writing my essays that are due on tuesday & thursday. unfortunately i went to my aunts house with my mom and now i have no more incentive to continue, bleh. i was going to just sit on twitter and tweet about absolutely everything that came to my mind, but i figured people would get annoyed with me very fast, so thats why im here. theres papers all over my desk and on my bed. most of it is my research, some of it is my bibliography, my outline, my license and the tv and dvd remotes are there too. im too bored to get up and do anything. im not really in the mood to do laundry, i dont think im in the mood to watch a movie, but anna is coming over after like 6:30 so hopefully we'll find something to do other than sit on our asses.......which is most likely what will happen because thats usually all we ever do. then ill get realy tired because im bored then she'll leave then i probably wont be bored anymore then i'll complain some more about how theres nothing to do. then thats probably when i'll go find something to eat because i eat when i get bored. ughhhhhhhhhhhh its a rough life :( so yeah. idk. just nothingness. bored. out. of. my. skull. lkjadskjashfi;ojw34r-08iu3yyyyyyyyy":>[]-iu3rdvwih Z<:L>qcfeoamki9q8uy76gsjn765rfgvhjkl,.;p-098uhjop-=][;2.;qpe98d7yghb3nm,l;dpwuyil3w4uaej;ofc;98ou'zefwk;ldsmc p;9oooooofxnhbaerhylzdfkml,c[0a-34hyuai;oewkdsml,.w65edsry78iujnop[;./'=-0okjnbvf43wqazsdr67yuhbnmo0-[p;l.,;'[-9876543wo;iqw yep, im definitely bored. god it sucks. i literally am not sure what to do. im sure theres stuff to do i just cant find any of it. ive honestly lost all inspiration to write my paper, which really sucks because what i have so far is really good and well thought out and it actually sounds smart. but now, if i start writing, it'll all sound like some 3 year old wrote it and i'll just wind up erasing all of it anyway so theres really no point in trying. god, im such a quitter. my mom just got home, kates leaving soon, jeff is at a school concert so i think me, sus, mom and rich are going to be the only ones here. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ooooh i think susie is going somewhere too. thats what i just heard my mom say :)  maybe ill go with them just for the ride. then i wont be sitting in the house alone (not really because rich is here) but then i can get out again and then maybe i wont feel like a complete bum loser because technically ill be out doing something! woo! so last night i went ot the mvcc art show because kylee wanted someone to go with her and she had 2 pieces in the show, which is totally awesome because they only pick 36 pieces, so for her to get 2 pieces is absolutely amazing. unfortunately she didnt win anything but to me, shes a winner because shes so damn talented. but anyway, during the art shows or when theres something going on in the gallery, they have people from the music club performing like on the piano and some people bring their flutes and clarinets but anyway, no one was playing the piano then all of a sudden this black guy goes over and just starts playing......and he was good, like amazing. me and kylee were sitting there talking and eating food that was provided and i was in complete awe over this guy. he was so aweomse. theres something about guys that can play the piano thats just so sexy. if a guy can play the piano, of all instruments the piano, it makes them seem so sensitive and caring to me. so anyway, he starts off by playing cannon in d minor then he just started blending all these really popular radio hits together. like hed play 30 seconds of one song and without stopping hed go into another popular song. i obviously recognized cannon in d minor but the next song i just couldnt figure out the title. i knew it i just forgot. then he played viva la vida by coldplay, a thousand miles by vanessa carlton, halo by beyonce and a bunch more. then he went and sat down and it got really quiet but i didnt mean to be this loud and i said, hey get back over there and keep playing you were amazing! and sure enough, he goes back over and started playing again until we left. he was honestly my hero last night. so thats my awkward story about how i, yet again, made a fool out of myself in public. so i think im going to ask where everyone is going and maybe ill go with . i want to go outside, its so nice. anyway, if i get bored again (which is bound to happen) im sure ill come back on here....or maybe ill just go on a wild twitter tangent. lol. ok, peacealate broha!

its been a while,

since ive been on. havent been doing much lately. just school as usual, and job hunting, which isnt going too well :/  jeff's prom is tomorrow night and hes going with his friend ashley that hes known since like kindergarden or something. moms got a headache again. kates a pain in the ass...as usual. and susie has claire and tara over and their going to an all time low concert tomorrow. ill probably stay in elmwood park for the day and hang out with stephanie. hopefully jessie doesnt have a game because that will keep her and kate out of mine and steph's hair. we almost got rid of bruiser the other day, of course in the same day we almost adopted a puppy from the animal welfare league. she was so cute. she was only 4.5 months old and she looked exactly like jasmine :)  she was absolutely adorable!! too bad shes probably already gone. theres no way a dog as cute as her is going to stay there for long. there were two other dogs that were super cute. one of them was also a black lab mix but he had wayyy too much energy. he was like sadie but black and the other dog was a shepherd mixed with something else but he was a little smaller than sadie was. there was also a little tag on his cage door that said "free kisses" and if you stuck you face up to the door he would start giving kisses.....SOOOO CUTE!!! ughhh i could honestly take all the cute doggies and kitties home. speaking of kitties, there were 4 kittens in the front lobby while i was filling out the adoption application and i kept asking mom if we could take home the little rambunctious one. he kept waking the black kitty up and pouncing on him and rolling himself under the bedding that lined the bottom of the cage.....SOOOO CUTE TOO!!! oh man, i cant take it anymore!! when i get my own house, im going to have big dogs and kitties all over the place (not like an animal horder though) but yeah. i think im done for now. im kinda tired and i think im going to go back out and watch the white sox get their asses handed to them in the last few innings of the game, so pathetic :/  anyway, good night for now

havent blogged since the day after my bday...wow

there hasnt been much going on.  school, as usual.  i got a 2 jobs but i think i mentioned that already.  one in downers grove dog sitting and one in homer glen babysitting 2 kiddies for the occiasional date-night.  i got another job offer and went to an interview for a woman in soothmoor to watch her 2 kids monday through friday.  hopefully i get it cuz i really liked her and her kids and i think they liked me too.  ok so the real reason i decided to pick today to blog was because i just officially found out that this person i used to have the biggest crush on is gay.  I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST GAYS/LESBIANS/BI-SEXUALS OR TRANSGENDER PEOPLE!  to each his own :) <3  i liked this guy in 5th grade and im pretty sure he liked me too.  hes a year older than me and when we were at a dance when i was in 5th grade (he was in 6th) he asked me to dance to "i dont wanna miss a thing" by aerosmith.  it was the first time i think i was ever that close to him.  aside from hanging out at our brother's boy scout meetings together, we never really hung out.  i saw him at the dances and whatnot and at the meetings and i was friends with his brother (who is my age).  I think deep down i always kinda knew he wasnt really into girls the way most other guys are and seeing today that his relationship status on facebook says "in a relationship with william something rather" wasnt really shocking, just kinda reassuring, like i knew it all along.  of course im happy for him.  i miss him too.  i wish we stayed in touch when he went to princeton (hes smart as fuck) and when my family moved to orland.  I have one picture with him and it was after he was done with school at john mills and we were standing by the playground and either his mom or my mom took the picture, and that was the last time i saw him.  he went to high school and we moved to orland.  i do miss him but i dont want to be that awkward girl that he hasnt talked to in 7 years that just flat out says it to him or to a facebook message, so yeah.  oh and my mom needs to stop being so careless about laundry, shes shrinking all my clothes!!! ughhh.

spring break, vices & virtues, birthday, com presentation

spring break was boring as fuck.  i dont really remember what i did all i clearly remember is that i didnt do much.  panic! at the disco's new cd "vices & virtues" came out on march 22nd and i called best buy and put a cpoy on hold....its really amazing.  i also downloaded all 6 of the bonus tracks which one can only obtain if you bought the fantastical bundle on panic!'s website, of course there were only 300 of those avaliable so they obviously went fast.  my 19th birthday was yesterday and it was really fun.  luckily i dont have class on wednesdays so i was able to relax and spend the whole day with my mommy :)  i had a team edward cake, and it was clearly awesome <3  i got a blackhawks lanyard, black swan on dvd, new headphones, rainbow zebra toe socks from anna along with a homemade card with a picture of jared leto on one side and an oil pastel drawing on the other side.  i also got a patrick kane drawstring bag from my uncle, window clings from my mom and either $80 or $90 and my aunt said someone gave her a starbucks gift card, but she doesnt drink starbucks so she said she would let me have it, but i guess she forgot it because she didnt have it with her last night lol.  im pretty sure thats all i got.  we went out to buca de peppo's for dinner and it was absolutely delicious.  oh yeah and my mom also got me a new dvd player and another bottle of black shatter nail polish (those werent included in my birthday presents)  so today i had a presentation in my composition class with 3 other girls.  i put the whole powerpoint togther and it turned out awesome and we were the first group to go today.  our topic was art and one of the sub categories that i came up with was music...long story short i put in the music video for wake me up when september ends by green day and thought, ok, this is really depressing but it conveys the point im trying to make (ive seen the video before and was depressed then too) so we watched the video  and i started to talk about the message that green day was trying to get across in the making of that video and i completely broke down crying in front of the whole class.  the music video is pretty much about an 18 year old guy that signs up to go to the army and doesnt tell his girlfriend and he winds up going to iraq and, yeah its just really sad because its the truth that all these really young kids are going off the war and dying...ughhh, it was really embarassing but i still love that music video.....and i love green day :)  so yeah, i think thats pretty much all i have to say

longggggg timeeee

first time ive been on here since i got my laptop back, which was friday.  dont feel like using proper grammar, wahhhh.  listening to the backstreet boys right now, kinda hoping ill be able to go to their show in may.  not too sure about that one, but def going to see panic at the disco on june at the riv!! :)  already got mine, anna's and tara's money; opening a bank account on monday, putting the money in the account then waiting for my debit card to get here then ill order the tickets.  omg im so excited :)))))  mr brendon urie here i come....AGAIN!  tomorrow is my last day of spring break then back to the hell hole on tuesday blahhh.  wrote my essay yesterday, just gotta print it out now.  i must mention that i got 2 jobs...no im not working at mcdonalds or DQ, i drive to downers grove and dog sit for a girl who, coincedentely, works at DQ lol.  then sometimes i babysit for a family in homer glen, actually this past friday was my first time there but they need an occasional "date night" babysitter and they thought i was right for the job.  i made $120 in 4 days: $60 for the first 2 days of dog sitting, $30 from babysitting then $30 yesterday for dog sitting....not too shabby id say.  hopefully im going to go see limitless with anna tonight because i dont really want to go tomorrow because ill have to get up early on tuesday morning for school, god i am definitely not looking forward to that especially my composition class.  the only upside to going back to school is that im half way done with this semester, which is totally awesome :)  ok, i think im getting carpal tunnel or something, so im going to stop before my hands fall off.

one of these days, ill die of bordum

I walked all the frickin way to my composition class just to find out that its cancelled....fml. That was the one class i actually needed to go to so i can hand stuff in. Now im trying to kill time until 2; so far, no success. I literally have nothing to do. And i cant take notes because im sitting on the floor and that makes my handwriting super messy. But the good side about today is that ive been in a weird mood to just listen to the backstreet boys so thats pretty much been my main source of music for the past 3 hours lol. Ughhh, ive got cramps in my feet from sitting on the floor with my legs crossed....never good to cut off blood flow and then i practically fall over when i try to walk hahaha, its actually really funny. Ok so this janitor obviously has nothing to do because hes been walking back and forth down the hall for about the past 30 minutes. YO! Dude, dont you have work to do or something?! Go keep the campus clean...duhh. Ok im sort of annoyed with blogging right now, so that'll be all :)

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Im writing this on my phone so hopefully this will work. Today has been a rough one. This morning was absolutely horrible. It actually all started last night; i was on twitpic looking at pauley perrette's pictures that she uploaded and all of a sudden i get a message on my computer that says its in danger and it starts a diagnostic scan and then it says that my computer has 38 infections on it. So i closed out of the internet then my desktop background disappears and instead of my background, its a message that doesnt even sound legitimate so i shut down my laptop and went to sleep. Then this morning when i woke up, i called my mom and asked if i could use her anti virus and spyware program that she hasnt loaded onto her computer yet. So i went and got the disk and the messages are still showing up amd my background is still gone then i tried loading the disk and another message pops up that says "application cannot load because file tasking.exe is infected", in english that pretty much means that all i can do is turn my computer on and off.....the fucking thing prety much locked me out of my computer. I was crying and i called my dad to see if he would let me buy the anti virus software that was on the screen but he told me to bring the laptop to best buy. I later looked up this System Tool program, which is what kept popping up on the screen, and it turns out that THAT was a virus!! It was a scam to get your personal info and credit card number, fml. So mom came home and we went to best buy and the guy at geek squad said that theres been a rash of those viruses and people have been bringing in their computers left and right so hes going to fix that for me and install the anti virus software for me. For $259 this better fricking work. Anyway, my day has gotten a little better. I got all my homework done and had lunch and spent time with my mommy, which is always super fun :) But we went to the hospital yesterday and saw grandma, shes still bruised, in pain and not her spunky self which sucks. Then kelly and kevin showed up (kellys still dumb as fuck) then aunt patty came. Gammy was released from the hospital last night at 6pm and now shes at lexingtom rehab center about a mile from our house. Its a good thing that me and mom went there to drop off gammy's flowers instead of going straight home because her bed wasnt even ready. Unfortunately shes sharing a room with 3 other people and my mom said the reasons shes there is because now she'll be close to everyone and the rehab is really good. Now im just sitting in my room, killing my phone battery writing this waiting for something exciting to happen.....lalala, nothing. Anyway, i probably wont blog anything else until i get my computer back because this is destroying my phone battery. Ok, ummm, yeah.

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meep

Another day of sitting at home doing absolutely nothing...yayy (sarcasm).  I miss Steph, I miss this past weekend, I miss Brent Seabrook's ass.  The Hawks won last night against the Coyotes in a shootout and tonight they play the Minnesota Wild and if they best them, the Hawks will be like 2 games up on the Wild for the playoff spot (I think it's 2 games).  Sitting in my freezing cold room on my laptop, like I said, doing nothing.  Oh, and by the way, Lady Gaga's music video for "Born This Way" is awesome!!  She's so damn creative it's not even funny. 

this week's agenda thus far & soon to come

Sunday Feb. 20th:  Honestly, I don't remember what I did, all I clearly remember was that Richie was over.
Monday Feb. 21st:  Richie stayed the night again because the schools were closed for President's Day; I don't have class on Mondays anyway so it didn't affect me.
Tuesday Feb. 22nd:  Class from 8am-3:15pm, 'twas a pretty good day, a little cold but it wasn't a bad day.
Wednesday Feb. 23rd (today):  Decent, relaxing day; watched NCIS practically all day & did laundry.  Any homework that I have, which isn't much anyway, is all due nest Thursday the 3rd or March; saw Anna's new car; went to Sandburg for Jeff's PSAE Scholar Award Ceremony (lame, except I saw Mr. J) ;)  came home to find that Bruiser peed on the leg of a wooden chair (we're getting rid of him tomorrow, thank God); now I'm blogging when I should be going to bed.
Thursday Feb. 24th:  My composition class is cancelled because my teacher's son is having surgery so I'll have a break from 10:45 until my last class starts at 2pm; Jeff & Susie are having their oral surgery and I might have to go as one of their escorts (not sure why they each need 2, but whatever); Jersey Shore, Vampire Diaries & Blackhawks game all on TV which means Anna's coming over to watch JS with me :)
Friday Feb. 25th:  Not doing much; Stephanie's class ends at 10:45am then she'll be on her way over and then we're going to Willowbrook to meet Patrick Sharp from the Hawks!!; Steph's going to sleep over :)
Saturday Feb. 26th:  Steph, me, possibily Susie (if she's not in too much pain), maybe Kate & probably Becky are driving to Oak Lawn at like 10am to be some of the first people in line at Hawk Ford to meet Brent Seabrook from the Hawks!!  Yes, 2 Blackhawks players in 2 days with my best friends <3

All in all, this week has been awesome and will continue to get even better <3

Starting with yesterday, my mom got 2 phone calls from 2 of her sisters (Barb & Patty) telling her that my grandma was hit by a car :(  She was crossing at about 95th & Lawndale when a 70-some year old tried to beat the traffic and hit her.  She was rushed to Christ hospital and my mom went up there at about 7pm.  Rich got a text from here and then told me that my grandma possibily had a fractured hip and had to breaks in her right knee (which was just replaced no longer than a year ago) and that her blood pressure had dropped significantly and she was brought to the cardiac center where the trauma team kept an eye on her.  She had to have a CT scan to make sure she had no internal bleeding, which was probably the biggest concern that everyone had.  My mom didn't get home until 3am and she said that grandma was in ICU until her blood pressure cam back up.  We found out later today that she had no internal bleeding (which is a huge relief) and that she has multiple fractures in her right hip and pelvic area and a clean break right above where her artificial knee is, she's also got bruises covering her right arm and hand and the right side of her face is bruised :(  My uncle Tommy went to the hospital today and brought his lawyer with, because gammy should NOT have to pay these medical bills.  She's a tough old lady, she's going to pull through, I just know it.  My aunt actually just told me over facebook that she's refusing pain medication (so stubborn) and she can't move because they pretty much strapped her down to her bed because of her hip.  On another note, I was texting Stephanie today, which was really nice because I haven't talked to her in so long, aside from the other day when I asked her to sleep over here and to meet the Hawks players with me.  So that was a nice/funny conversation.  I did lots of laundry and watched lots of NCIS.  The award ceremony for Jeff was pretty boring, but I got to see Mr. J which was very nice; he's such a great person to talk to (and his ass is absolutely amazing) ;)  When we got home, we found that Bruiser peed on the floor in the dining room right on the leg of one of my mom's wooden chairs, which she'll probably wind up throwing away because the smell of the acid in the urine will never go away....bye bye Spruce, my mom's taking him to the pound tomorrow.  Then we watched one more episode of NCIS, the one where Tony is framed for murder, which is one of my favorite episodes ever.  Anyway, I should really be getting to bed because I'm super tired from doing nothing all day and I've got school tomorrow.  And tomorrow is my last day of school for 6 days because next Tuesday the campus is closed to student for staff development day....WOOHOO!!!  Ok, then going to sleep.

composition

Sitting in class; done writing what I was supposed to write; waiting for the instrutor to start the film we're watching...whatever!  Ughhh, my stomach started hurting all of a sudden, this is not fun.  I'm still so excited for Friday and Saturday with Steph :)  She's got a countdown going, I can't contain my excitement!!! :D  So yeah, nothing better to do than blog in class...yep...I'm THAT bored!  Blahblahblah.  Just relieved that this class is cancelled on Thursday then school is closed next Tuesday...6 DAY WEEKEND!! 

omegle

So, I'm not sure if I'm actually talking to who this person says they are on Omegle.com, but he's really sweet.  He gives me compliments and said he still wants to talk to me but he had to get off the computer so we kept our pages up so we can talk later.  Anyway, it's just really sweet.  So, I'm watching the Hawks game and they're doing GREAT!!  They're up 3-2.  They scored 3 goals in 4 minutes and 11 seconds...God, they're awesome.  So me and Stephanie are meeting Patrick Sharp on Friday in Willowbrook and then she's sleeping over Friday night then on Saturday, me, her, Susie and possibily Becky are meeting Brent Seabrook in Oak Lawn....THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEST WEEK EVER!!!

"when these open doors were open ended"

Just got done painting my nails :)  Mommy isn't mad at me anymore, she thought I was mad at her.  Anyways, 30 Seconds To Mars performed on the Tonight Show with Jay Leno last night and they were awesome (as usual).  They had men and women from the military in the background singing with the audience to "NO, NO, NO, NO!"  They're so clever and creative.  So I'm determined to get ALL of my homework done today so I'll have Sunday and Monday to relax which has pretty much been my goal since school started.  I'm sure Tuesday will fly by and Thursday my Composition class is being cancelled because my teacher's son is having surgery.  So starting this coming Tuesday, I have 5 days worth of classes until spring break, which is totally awesome.  Anyway, I've got nothing else to say so I think I'll get started with the rest of my homework then I'll be back later after I do my hair.

Fuck off

I'm getting really sick and tired of my mom threatening to kick my out of the house and yelling at me to start looking for a job.  NEWSFLASH!!  I've been looking for about 5 months now!!  This economy blows dick and fucking nobody is hiring!  I've applied to like 15 babysitting/nannying/pet sitting jobs and I just looked into a job at the boarding kennel.  There are almost no job opportunaties that will fit my school schedule and all she fucking does is ride my ass about it.  I'm so sick of it.  I'm sitting in my room listening to my iPod debating whether or not to go and make dinner.  Hawks game start at 7:30 then I'll be watching the Jay Leno show because 30 Seconds To Mars is going to be performing, so maybe that will make my day a little better.

short-term memory loss....

Yesterday was another day of school that flew by.  Unfortunaetly it was really muddy and there were puddles of water every where and I went to avoid a huge puddle so I decided to step around it and walk in the grass because I thought, well it worke earlier in the day.....FUCK MY LIFE!!! The first damn step I took my right foot sank about 4 inches into the ground and the bottom of my pants got wet and I was wearing my Adiddas sandals with socks and my sock was wet and so was my sandal :(  It sucked.  It was funny but it just sucked lol.  Then last night was fun.  Watched the Vampire Diaries with Susie then Anna came over and we watched Jersey Shore and it was fun.  But I kinda had to kick her out because I started falling asleep on the couch but on the plus side, I got a good nights rest and woke up this morning at 10:37 on the dot.  It was nice to know that I was the only one home, but as soon as I came out of the bathroom, my mom was in the house....wahhh.  Its a good thing I love her :)  So now I'm doing homework and I might go to the Sportsplex with my mom so I'll possibly be back on a little later if I don't get sidetracked doing something unproductive (like I usually do).  Yep, dess all...byeee!!!!

The last 3 days

The past 3 days are kind of a blur.  No, I wasn't drinking or doing durgs, I just have a bad memory.  Valentine's Day was fun, got to spend the day with my mommy at home and Anna came over for a bit when she came home from school.  Monday was actually the start of the nice weather that's supposed to go through Friday, but tomorrow is supposed to be the nicest day out of the whole week....59 degress!! WOO-HOO!!  I'm so excited.  Going to wear my Blackhawks jersey because their game against the Minnesota Wold just ended and the Hawks beat them 3-1! :)  Today has been such a good day.  I took Bruiser with me to go pick up my contacts then I took him by Centinnial and took him for a little walk and I was actually wearing sandals!!!!!  Ahhhh, yes, it was so nice out :)  Sunny and a bit chilly, but it was still like 46 or 47 degrees outside which is much better than the 25 or 30 degree weather I'm grown used to so far this new year.  Still have a little bit of homework to do for abnormal psychology then I'm done.  Maybe I'll watch a movie?  But then again I'm always saying that I'll watch a movie before I go to bed and then that never winds up happening.  It's true though, I really can't remember what I did the last couple days.  Monday and Tuesday just seem so long ago, haha.  Anyway, probably won't be back on tonight.  Possibly tomorrow or maybe even over the weekend.  So that's all for now internet world.  Peace.Love.Goonights sleep ;)

Bummer yesterday, better today...so far

Yesterday was not the best day in the world, except for the fact that Anna told me that she's knitting me an earwarmer (love my best friend).  I had to come to the unfortunate decision to not go to the 30 Seconds To Mars concert in April.  Anna's dad will kill her if she ditches her classes and even if she went straight after school, neither of us trust the people at coat check with her bag and school books.  And, my mom doesn't want me taking 2 trains and going to Uptown by myself (which I understand, since I'm not too familiar with the 'L' anyway).  I honestly cried for about 30 minutes because I was so upset.  Perhaps next year will be better; I will have a job and I won't have to borrow money from anyone and maybe they will have a show on a Friday or Saturday or even over the summer.  It's really sad, but it's really just not a possibility :'(  I felt a little better when I went to the store with my mom and we were goofing off (as usual).  We came home, I had gelato while watching the beginning of the Blackhawks game then we made homemade pizza and then I finished watching the game.  Sadly, this was the first Hawks game I had watched from puck drop to final buzzer almost all season and they lost in a shoot-out.....damn.  I had some more ice cream and watched Zombieland, "it's time to nut up or shut up", love that line, then turned in for the night.  This morning was pretty good.  I woke up to the sun coming in through my bedroom window and  then my mom made me an omlette (yumm).  That's the day so far and hopefully it won't be too terrible.  Any maybe I'll get all my homework done. 

yep, yep, uh huh, ok, yep

Yesterday was fiiine. Anna came over for Jersday then we peed ourselves laughing at 1 am (we didn't really pee ourselves). Yeah, I honestly don't remember yesterday other than it was cold as hell. Soooooooo, today's been goood so far :)  I've been doing laundry and I went to the eye doctor to switch my contact perscription then I went to the bank for my mom. Then I totally forgot that Lady Gaga's new song "Born This Way" was released today so I bought that on iTunes and.....IT'S AWESOME!!!!! Then I went on facebook and on my news feed there's an update from 30 Seconds To Mars with their spring tour dates and guess what?,........................................THEY'RE GOING TO BE COMING TO THE ARAGON BALLROOM ON APRIL 14TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy shit, I'm so fucking excited. I screamed and ran and told my mom and then I went and applied for like 10 more babysitting/nannying jobs and then I read that tickets go on sale next Saturday. Kind of a bummer at the time because I didn't think I'd be able to get money for the tickets for me and Anna. But I just got off the phone with my dad and he told we that if I ask my mom to borrow the money, he'll pay her back next Thursday and that will be my birthday present from him!! God, I hope this works. I would sell my soul to see 30 Seconds To Mars and I honestly don't know if I'll get another chance like this. Ok, got to go figure out how to sway my mother into pulling this off. Wish me luck :)

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So I'm sitting here trying to do my homework and I think I have like ADHD or something because I can't focus and I keep moving around and I'm obviously not working on it now.  Ughhh suckfest 2011.  So Anna was telling me that there are rumors going around that Muse, Foo Fighters and Eminem are going to be the headliners at Lollapalooza this year, which will be totally awesome if those rumors turned out to be true.  But what would be even more awesome is if 30 Seconds To Mars was going to be there!! Oh my God that would make my life complete :)  I know they're performing at Lolla in Chile but that's all I know on that subject.  *sigh* Gosh, I'm so bored.  And I realized that I'm being grammatically correct in all of my posts, which is very unusual for me.  Lol.  Capitalizing 'I' and using commas and correcting everything that I can find; it's just weird.  O_o  Anywho, I think I'll go back to doing my homework. 

A good first day back :)

Today was surprisingly a good first day back to school after Blizzard 2011.  To top it off, I watched the brand new music video for "The Ballad of Mona Lisa"; Panic! At The Disco's first single off their new CD "Vices & Virtues".  Let me tell you, it was so amazing.  I miss their old music and this new CD is going to bring it back!! :)  And the other morning topper was that my truck started up right away!  YIPPEE!!  Abnormal Psychology was fun.  My teacher told us about how last Tuesday when the storm was almost at its worst, he went walking around the campus and it took him an hour plus to get back to his car haha...dork.  My Human Development class went by fairly quick, although my teacher is still rather boring and repeats herself all the time.  Break inbetween ADC & COM was HILARIOUS!! Oh my Lord, I love Becky, she's so damn funny.  I watched while her and her friend Joe played 4 card games: 2 of Speed and 2 of Crazy 8s.  After Joe left, I helped her with her Humanities homework then we played 8 card games...unfortunetly I ended up 2-6.  It's been so long since I played Speed, Crazy 8s or Go Fish lol!  Composition was ok.  My teacher said he got my e-mail and just decided not to e-mail me back...thanks a lot dip-shit.  So we were supposed to work on our papers, which are now due Thursday, but since I was having trouble concentrating on what to write, I was on White Sox.com the whole time.  I didn't know they got rid of Bobby Jenks?!  Oh well, my mom reminded me of how he kind of sucked last year anyway.  And to top of my school day, Humanities wasn't too bad.  That class usually seems the longest because it's my last class of the day, but it really did seem to move rather quick.  I got back out to my truck, which started right away again, and got gas.  Funny thing though, I had a mini school reunion at Speedway haha.  I saw 2 people I've gone to school with since 6th grade, weird coincidence :)  Anyway, I'm home now until Thursday.  I've got to go get Jeff from Track practice (honestly, how can you practice track? Practice running? WTF?!)  I'll come back later, maybe ;)

First day back....eww

Up at 5:50am.  Leaving for 7 hours of hell.  My com teacher never e-mailed me (great).  Today's outfit consists of jeans and my Jonathan Toews Blackhawks jersey (even though they lost last night).  Not in the mood to deal with people.  Its so cold outside.  But on the upside from last night, I got another personal message, not from Andrew Garfield, but from Hayden Christensen aka Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars 2 & 3.  It was pretty cool.  But it makes me wonder if it's really him because there isn't a verified checkmark by his name.  Maybe I'm being played by a fool, maybe not.  All I know is that Andrew Garfield messaged me and that's all that matters :)  Ok, off to school.  Probably be back around 3:30 or 3:45pm. 

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Hmmm, where to start?  Well, I haven't stopped thinking about the message I got from Andrew Garfield that's for damn sure ;)  I painted my nails with what I like to call "stripper purple" yes, it's that bright and vivid.  I watched 3/4 of Inception (because I'm obsessed, duhh), I watched Pretty Little Liars with my little sister, then I watched the rest of The Town with my mom & her boyfriend.  I'd say today was a pretty lazy, yet fun day.  Got to spend it with my mommy, got a new starter for my truck (unfortunetly the old one is from 1997 & the screws are so rusty that we can't get it out of the truck) and I finally took the day off from cleaning.  My stupid ass composition instructor never e-mailed me back with what I'm supposed to write my essay on....WHICH IS DUE TOMORROW AT 12:30PM!!!!!!!!!! Ughhhhhh, I hate assholes.  And since this is the first grade of the semester, I'm already failing the class, well doesn't that look great.  Whatever, I'll bitch him out tomorrow and that will be that.  I just noticed that the nail polish on my right thumb nail is messed up...joy.  I'm sure I'm forgetting something else that I did today, but I just can't think of what it is. Oh well.  If I think of anything else blog worthy, I'll sign back on.  But for now, I'm going to wash my face, say goodnight to the family, hop in bed and watch the rest of Inception.  ☮