it can only go up from here?

today wasnt too bad seeing him. we talked about a bunch of different things, he made me laugh. i dont know, i think it was definitely less awkward. i think the one thing that really decreased my confidence & kind of my mood all together, was the i walked in silence by myself to my car. no attempt to wait for me or walk with me. i think that was the only thing that was the most, i guess, upsetting in a way? i mean, i dont want to sound like a crazy stalker or something or some kind of lunatic but i just really think i want something to happen from all of this. anna said it will get better and i believe her. i made my move, now i guess i just have to wait on him to make his. for some reason, and i know this will sound crazy, but he kept trying to say something but he either said he forgot waht he was going to say or he just stopped talking completely. in my crazy, infatuated mind, i seriously wanted to believe that he wanted to ask if we could hang out sometime. of course, like i said, im a little nuts so im sure it wasnt that at all. he never did tell me what he wanted to say though. anyway, im home now & im quite hungry. ive got work at 4 & i have no idea what im going to do in the meantime. ill figure something out. if anything else happens, ill post something if i remember :)